I had an odd experience today. In close quarters during an ice breaker activity at peer mentor training, a man in front of me grabbed my hip to pull me toward him a little. Now normally, when someone grabs someone else to pull them forward, especially if it is someone with whom you are not entirely familiar, you grab their arm, their shoulder, their hand- but their waist or hip?!

Even stranger, my reaction to this intrusion on my personal space (something that if you know me in person, I am NOT A FAN OF), was extremely powerful. Contrary to my unsual discomfort, I found myself pulled forward, almost as if a second hand was pressed against my shoulder blades!

It’s so strange to me when I find myself so biologically attracted to someone. I think of myself as an intellectual- a woman of reason. These kinds of feelings and reactions always take me by surprise, pleasurable though they are.

As you can see from this post, I haven’t stopped thinking about that little pull and that harder drawing-forward since it happened.

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I love when I discover or admire things about myself- what an adventure being a human is! I don’t mean admire in an arrogant way, just a feeling of being pleased with yourself for something. Today I remembered that I am very gifted with intuition. At times, in dealing with people I know intimately, I sometimes get perfectly clear ideas of what they are thinking- almost as if they had written me a note about it. Even with people I know less well, I am still pretty blessed with insight. Most of the time, this insight is to my advantage- I can deal very effectively with lots of different kinds of people, quickly assessing their attitudes, comfort level, and reactions on an ongoing basis- kind of like having a finger on their emotional pulse.

But sometimes, this intense connection with people can be a little off-putting. I guess it can best be explained that not only people I am similarly attracted to are attracted to me. ALL kinds of people gravitate toward me, even people I’d rather gravitated AWAY from me. I do appreciate being someone that a wide range of people feel they can trust.

What do you admire about yourself?